Was just looking through the archive as this blog is over a year old now... longer than I ever managed to keep a journal going... but what a year to record! Personally it has been a very dramatic year... this time last year I was working for an obscure scientific charity producing two highly regarded scientific journals in the field of fertility so I was reading some fascinating articles about elephant sperm and the like!! But it got a little dull.... then I met someone fell in love and moved to London, whilst in the process of moving my youngest was involved in a hit and run, my eldest became a potential father and my lover was held up in a bank robbery.... and now after the longest hottest summer on record I am working on the fringes of the fashion industry organising the travel back and forth from various fashion shows, have crashed a car, drunk my way through countless bottles of wine, realised I have got some very very good friends, been clubbing and gone to Glastonbury for the first time, moved out, and found a flat with a swimming pool attached! Youngest still having problems with his broken collarbone but he has found a very sweet and supportive and handsome boyfriend, eldest still inthe same relationship, they have just celebrated their first anniversary though without the potential child and both sons are working!!.... hmmmmmmmmm some year and I'm only 45 still!!

Hidden away from the world for the last couple of days, many thanks to Neela for providing not only a sofa but a bed too!!! So only a week to go until I move into my new flat, god this has been traumatic and totally draining... have hidden away in books too this last two weeks. Have devoured Vernon God Little, Astonishing splashes of colour, The divine secrets of the Ya-Ya sisterhood and the not to be forgotten Who moved my cheese! plus started Brick Lane when I was in Bethnal Green and left it behind... is it a form of escapism I wonder to immerse oneself in a fictional world for a day or two?? Pondering the possibility of finding a reading group so that I have to really focus my reading a bit more and have something to say about the experience afterwards..... any suggestions?
A week to go...... so far I have bought a mattress, sorted a few things out in Cambridge and have tried desperately hard to remember the size and proportions of the place that we so briefly saw in what seems like an age ago and to think next week I'll be living there!!!!

Still living on people's sofa's and becoming very tired of it all.... will not get the keys to the new flat until the 7th which seems to be getting further away rather than closer, it is now 10 days away. But it's one of those arrangements that keep getting put off and seems forever to be 10 days away ... starting to wonder if I'll ever actually have a home again! It's also making stuff like cooking in one's own kitchen seem like the most desirable thing in the world.... was wandering around M&S last night and getting excited at the thought of a microwave dinner for one!!! Heard from Sarah this morning my new flatmate to be, she mentioned the mini-mirrored balls and pink sheepskins that are available on Deptford market hmmmmmm well it will be a laugh no less!!!
Reading Vernon God Little which is perhaps not ideal reading for a footloose and homeless transient to read but I love his ummmm what do you call them ... misreadings? misconceptions? such as 'Adult Hitler' and 'powerdime shifts'.... a world of little depth, subtlety or understanding... angst ridden humour!

Find myself living in Bethnal Green as a temporary measure and actually find I really enjoy the area, there's a vitality here that is utterly missing in Rotherhithe and I feel very alive and full of energy. It might be a little shabby but it's colourful and vibrant. I am walking to walk which is a delight and there are sights along the way that make you smile. Not only John Travolta and Samuel L Jackson all suited as in Pulp Fiction holding bananas at arms length on Old St but also the bridge over Old Street with the uniformed smiley faces and the words KEEP LEFT centrally positioned.... but there's also wonderful little bits of stencilled graffitti such as the punk with little purple wings on Ion Sq Gdns and a number of pavement sketches that you smile as you walk over...

Time zipping by again and its now October!!

Had another look at The Blaine....... looks a tad thinner but still up there perplexingly?? Dead odd! Still haven't really worked out my ambivalence, but anyway..... went on the London Eye last sunday and it was all that I expected! well as I hadn't really had any expectation that's not as good as it sounds. went with sons + partners and Pete.... good views indeed and the sun was just setting so the light was really interesting.

Other things recently worth a remark or two have been Holmes Place in Kensington.. very nice gym/leisure centre ... had a long swim, a bit of a jacuzzi, a moment of steam room and lots of lusciously hot powerful showers....... cool indeed! I will be back! That is if A keeps working there and sneaks me in for free!!

Had a look at Friendster yesterday and thought it worth a few moments of registering so have attempted that today but its not sending out the email verification and as I'm Billy-no-mates I can't really look around the site until someone else does too??? am I understanding this correctly??? Neela what was the thing about the 5 words to describe someone.. could not see that anywhere???? Five words to describe me......short hapless alcoholic.... hmmmmmm thats only three, must put on my positive hat!!....... !!