Saturday, July 03, 2021

the fens

A return no less. Despite the gorgeous ness of penzance I made a post pandemic decision to return to the family home, which I did in sept 2020. It has taken the winter and spring to start to feel a sort of recovery from long covid. Still not completely back to the me I knew and liked but getting there. 
The plan is to sell the house and maybe buy a houseboat and get a mooring somewhere in cambs to remain close to family. Maybe it took a pandemic to make me realise that proximity is important! 
I am restructuring my lifelong dreams and plan to stay in the east!! Gosh that's a sentence I never expected to see me write. I think maybe being a permanent resident in cornwall will never quite be when I have people I love living here in the fens. I always feel dislocated when I am living so far away. Never completely at home  in one place. I have longed to live in the west for most of my life and yet when I am there I am pulled back every time. So I am giving up thoughts of cornwall  and seeingif I can settle.