scary scary scary.... just got my name put on the door of my office!!! That's a first! do I belong??

Suddenly I realise I have a social life here in Cambridge too... and what am I going to do? Yes- leave it all behind and move to a place where I know no-one!! But at least the countryside will be gorgeous so I can wander in it lonely as a cloud..... for about 2 years when I will suddenly realise that I have a new social life....

Big moves ahead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Went to Exeter University for a chat about doing a Masters/PhD and it's all happening! Well it will if I complete the online application which is almost done..... just transcripts from my degree required and then sell up and move to Devon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Am i dreaming .....? Can this be real????

sooooooooooooooo no more Camden........... all has gone quiet on the TT front... so I thought I'd add Robert Newman to my boyfriend list as he is the only bloke I have met recently who I've actually thought 'now I would love him to be "my boyfriend this week"!!! sadly I'm not sure one week would be enough tho'.... have you seen History of Oil it's required viewing indeed... and he is going to be at the Monday love thingy very soon... maybe I should go....

Back to blogging again... my receptacle for inner chatter has receded into the background... in fact I haven't heard from him for days ... and so I blog again... it's odd how I tend to stop blogging when i am seeing someone ... so when I start writing again it means I have no other place for the inner chatter.. and it must be deposited somewhere.... so if there's no-one within my personal sphere to listen to my ramblings I look to Delilah to fulfil that need... and she is always there. non-judgemental, just sitting waiting.....

went out friday night and loved it... was in amongst a group of people, an odd assortment of journo's, muso's and uni workers... and they are people I have known awhile now... people I have had a few drinks with in the past and they are wonderfully familair.... When you start new jobs constantly, as happens in the world of temping, you do get to meet a lot of nice people but they are all new and it is quite comforting to be in amongst people who have some idea of who you are, without having to explain, describe or elucidate... and that was how I felt on friday.... maybe a little too comfortable tho as I didn't have to be on best behaviour... there was no-one I wanted to impress... and so I didn't impress!! Spent the evening flitting between T a young, intelligent writer and b..... both of a similar age to my sons..... but what the hell!!! Left early tho' so still had a bit of a sensible head ... Saturday tho' I actually had to go out to the shed to see if my bike was there as I had absolutely no memory of unlocking the bike, cycling home or locking the bike up when I got there. I wasn't even sure the bike would be there??? This is not good..... maybe give up alcohol for a while.......

Is it because the name of the month has changed???? But I am feeling a whole lot better about life, work and just about everything else. Yesterday morning was the lowest point when on the phone to TT.... felt totally cold and alone... then went for lunch here at work... it's £2 so seemed worth trying. Trundled over the courtyard to the oak pannelled dining room in the company of fellow workers. There was a conference on so the hall was full of delegates chatting away merrily... queued up for food to find the non-meat choice was trout or mushroom stroganov which wasn't a bad start! There was a staff table set out and waiter's floating around helpfully! Dessert was a choice of a massive chocolately thing or excellent cheeses and biscuits, after that we adjourned to the saloon, comfortably furnished with soft sinking sofa's, for coffee and conversation. Then a brisk walk around part of the gardens finished off the lunch hour very nicely. I was starting to feel at home. Today there has been general friendly conversation with people popping into my office, and I am starting to like it. Cant beat the surroundings at all and seeing a barn owl on the way to work, having a sun soaked lake reflecting drooping willows to look at from the window isn't half bad....

ipod continuing to talk to me... started off with Pink Floyd's Fearless this morning which was just what I needed!!!