Ivan's xtc is an amazing film....! My god what superficiality and meaninglessness and in the end we all die alone, ha unless you end up in some twin tower mass destruction thing of course .... I digress.......The film was about the death of an individual who had the rich life, drugs, money, success all of it..... but the superficiality and excesses didn't really amount to much when he was faced with his own imminent death, he just had no mechanism for coping with it, no one to talk to about it. He ended up telling two random women that he had just met. Now maybe I wont have the mechanisms for coping with such news, as it will come one day, somewhat inevitable really and this is where the film really works ... it showed in a very naked and raw way that the reality is we all die and most of us die alone, that life is insignificant, and very very brief.... that's it, it will end. So in a way what difference does it make? What does it matter really about the way we live our lives? hmmmmmmmmmmmmm existentiality in the raw, it compared well with Sartre's 'La Nausea' in it's bleakness....... but whereas after reading Sartre one is left in despair this film left a feeling of hmmmmmmmmmmmmm it could hardly be called hope maybe a feeling of, and now I really don't know how it got there but a feeling of warmth?? inexplicable really............